Does anyone have a map to this crazy road called life?

These days as the months where on, I am more and more confused as to what I should do with me life much like the name of this page I keep wondering via the immortal words of The Clash “Should I stay, or should I go.”

I am torn between deferring my enrollment at SFSU and trying to take the two math classes over summer and fall the taking relaxing and fun lit classes and art classes over the spring. Because my stress is falling into the area of my major only allows students in the fall. Because you know SFSU has a wonderful Cinema Program
, and a B.A. from them would help me chase down and tackle a career in screen writing like a tiger on a terrified gazelle. I have had the dream of becoming a writer since well since forever.

I have noted a third option that has flopped down on the table in front of me. Save up and just pack up. Move to LA and try to do this thing on my own now that I have my AA. But I would really love to have a BA in fact I crave one with a passion. I am just getting tired of being so stagnate in life sitting and that I need to mix things up a bit. But not in way my friends normally mix it up. A party isn’t going to do this, a road trip isn’t going to do it, it has to be something huge.

Then there is still the biggie on the table joining the Peace Corp, packing up and leaving the country and helping those out there who need help, but just can’t find it, or their country is to poor to provide it. See people need help, and I need to get out there and be the one to help people. You see a wise man by the name of Gandhi once said “Be the change you want to see in the world.” I think it’s time that I stepped up and did that. I think that the Peace Crop could be my gate way to do that. People support me in this choice. But a friend of mine also brought up Americorps which does many of the same things as the Peace Corp but on a national level.

So I haven’t made much progress in where I am going in my life. But isn’t that the bane of every 20 something’s existence.

The pools to shallow to dive-in head first.

Life decisions come in many shapes and sizes. Some you dive head first into; others are very thought out and calculated. I am a more dive head in kind of girl. I dove into getting my first piercing, I dove into journalism, I jumped at the chance to go to London when I was 19. But for once in my life I think the pool may just be a bit to shallow for me to dive in head first. The Peace Corp is 27 months of my life given up to serving others which I have no problems with in fact I would love that but it is also 27 months away from my family.

So to help me with this I have come up with a list of Pros and Cons.

The Pros
I can make a difference in the world
I will get to see the world
I will have the chance to clear my head
27 months of doing good
full health care that lasts 18 months after discharge
a little over $ 6000 upon discharge
meet new people
Learn loads of new things.

The Cons
Out of school
Away from family for 27 months
Away from friends for 27 months.
No connections overseas.



www.peacecorps.gov

student profile

Benny Ling, a lover of books, fan of philosophy, and journalism 120 student. Currently Ling is studying the language arts here at Skyline College, to help improve his language skills as he is not a native speaker.

“My main interest right now is language arts, I am not a native speaker and I want to express myself right in this language. I am from China; I came here when I was 12, so I have been here for about 11 years.” Ling added that there is not much difference between schooling in China and schooling in the U.S. “Not much…changes all the time over here, over there same class just a different teacher”

When asked if he could throw a dinner party and invite anyone living or dead ling had two very interesting choices. “Plato, Ernestine and any kind of famous write.” Replied Ling “I got nothing actually; I don’t know how to cook. Well I would cook them Chinese food… all my favorite dishes, it’s hard to say in English, a lot of meat but not a lot of vegetables.” Ling said.

Ling also made some wise choices on what to bring to a deserted island if trapped on one, many of use would have made choices like guy or girl or loved one, booze or in some cases a television. But Lings choices where far smarting including water, shelter, food, a flashlight and for some good old fashioned entertainment books.

So this is the man Benny Ling a guy that sits two rows over and four seats up from me who I just got to know a whole lot better and who you should get to know too.

Life, stuff and things.

We all have those moments in life where we can decide to do great things or let them slip through our fingers like water. Some times these moments come when you are laying the dark of your room listening to "The Best of The Doors." and the thought of what the hell am I going to do with my life pops into your head.

Well yours truly just had one of those moments a few weeks ago, as my life hangs in the balance two roads are opening up before me, one that leads to the SFSU film program the other until recently leading into the great unknown... . Well the great unknown until a about two weeks ago when I made a life choice to start looking into joining to Peace Corp if I don't get into state. So come with me on this journey as I make a choice that will change my life forever, and try to answer the question "Should I stay or Should I go?"